2010年慢慢過去，
但是過去的不會因而消失
尤如被撕下的日曆
會構成2011
我用過去，建立了將來。
倒數不會消滅了過去一年
也不會建立將來的一年。
倒數提醒了我，
我的過去又多了一點。
而可以建立將來的材料也同樣多了一點。
我用過去，建立了將來。
我用2010的努力建立2011。
瑋
20101231
2010-12-31
2010-12-30
2010-12-20
盛事 (spectacle)
盛事 ( spectacles) 泛指那些吸引群眾參與的大型活動，甚至是一些長期出現在社會上的景象也可以是一種盛事。
盛事一般來說，都是指那些傾向吸引遊客的活動，如大型運動會、煙花匯演、主題公園、大型展覽會等等。這種指向我覺得過於狹窄了。即使是把現代人生活所依賴的熒幕也納入其中，還是有點欠缺。
這種定義所欠缺的是，「盛事」好似只指向了沉醉在某種美夢的大型活動之中，而欠缺了另一種指向。
我所指的另一種指向，是日漸盛行的遊行示威。遊行示威是一種公民權利沒錯，市民的確是有透過上街來發聲的權利。那就好比是其他大型盛事的平民版，讓一般人也有能策劃一項「盛事」，而不一定只讓當權者專美。所以我姑且稱之為「反盛事」。
「反盛事」的起源，大概是為了提醒大眾「盛事」的夢的特質，原意為一種覺醒。但是在「盛事」文化的熏陶之下，這些所謂的「反盛事」也漸漸變質，成為了另一種「盛事」。這也是我特意用上「反盛事」三字的原因。
「盛 事」和「反盛事」，可以說已經變成了一體兩面。一方面是在沉醉於美夢之中，另一方面卻是深陷某種噩夢之中。「盛事」透過大量的幻想 ( fantasy)的影像，呈現一種虛假的歌舞昇平；「反盛事」則透過大量所謂揭示黑幕、黑箱作業等等，呈現一種營造出來的恐懼或噩夢之中，並透過這種「揭 示」來突顯「反盛事」的「清醒」。
「反盛事」真的是清醒的嗎？還是，它已經變質了成為一種沒有內涵的噩夢？
以 香港為例，「盛事」的最佳代表，莫過於一年一度的國慶煙花匯演。把上萬枚的火藥發放到維港上空污染一下空氣，造成光害和噪害，加上大量的遊客留下的垃圾用 以襯托出國家的繁榮盛世，耀眼的煙火彷彿可以把很多民間疾苦都掩蓋起來。一種觀眾透過抬頭看遠方的絢麗的煙火而看不見眼前的種種問題。煙火的殘影看來更可 以使他們選擇性失明一年，待下一年國慶再來補上另一針興奮劑。
「反盛事」的最佳代表，當然要數七一遊行。自零三年 起，七一遊行已成慣例。零三年的遊行事出有因，具有明確的內涵支持，是香港市民覺醒的一種呈現，但往後的七一遊行，就漸漸變成一種「反盛事」，是為遊行而 遊行，甚至變成了某一種儀式（Ritual)。把民主的手段當作一種儀式，那幾乎可以說是一種「狂熱」。諷刺的是，民主的真諦，我相信是反對狂熱的。一年 一度的遊行，充斥著各式別具心思的標語、口號。與其說是一種民主參與，不如說是一種以民主為題的主題活動，讓民眾透過這活動宣洩心中不快，每年狠狠地透過 雙腳在遊行中盡洩心中不快，然後又待明年補上另一次鎮定劑。
兩個例子之中，群眾依舊沉醉夢中。可惜的是，指出「盛 事」的虛假的人多如牛毛，即將要申辦的亞運的反對聲音大抵也是出於反對香港再搞「盛事」勞民傷財；指出「反盛事」的狂熱的人卻有幾多？我們都好像很相信社 會運動是代表公義的。但是從來沒有人反思所謂「代表公義」的「反盛事」本質上的問題。假如「反盛事」本質上和「盛事」無異，那麼「反盛事」又如何能夠帶領 我們走向一個「美好的將來」？
瑋
20101220
盛事一般來說，都是指那些傾向吸引遊客的活動，如大型運動會、煙花匯演、主題公園、大型展覽會等等。這種指向我覺得過於狹窄了。即使是把現代人生活所依賴的熒幕也納入其中，還是有點欠缺。
這種定義所欠缺的是，「盛事」好似只指向了沉醉在某種美夢的大型活動之中，而欠缺了另一種指向。
我所指的另一種指向，是日漸盛行的遊行示威。遊行示威是一種公民權利沒錯，市民的確是有透過上街來發聲的權利。那就好比是其他大型盛事的平民版，讓一般人也有能策劃一項「盛事」，而不一定只讓當權者專美。所以我姑且稱之為「反盛事」。
「反盛事」的起源，大概是為了提醒大眾「盛事」的夢的特質，原意為一種覺醒。但是在「盛事」文化的熏陶之下，這些所謂的「反盛事」也漸漸變質，成為了另一種「盛事」。這也是我特意用上「反盛事」三字的原因。
「盛 事」和「反盛事」，可以說已經變成了一體兩面。一方面是在沉醉於美夢之中，另一方面卻是深陷某種噩夢之中。「盛事」透過大量的幻想 ( fantasy)的影像，呈現一種虛假的歌舞昇平；「反盛事」則透過大量所謂揭示黑幕、黑箱作業等等，呈現一種營造出來的恐懼或噩夢之中，並透過這種「揭 示」來突顯「反盛事」的「清醒」。
「反盛事」真的是清醒的嗎？還是，它已經變質了成為一種沒有內涵的噩夢？
以 香港為例，「盛事」的最佳代表，莫過於一年一度的國慶煙花匯演。把上萬枚的火藥發放到維港上空污染一下空氣，造成光害和噪害，加上大量的遊客留下的垃圾用 以襯托出國家的繁榮盛世，耀眼的煙火彷彿可以把很多民間疾苦都掩蓋起來。一種觀眾透過抬頭看遠方的絢麗的煙火而看不見眼前的種種問題。煙火的殘影看來更可 以使他們選擇性失明一年，待下一年國慶再來補上另一針興奮劑。
「反盛事」的最佳代表，當然要數七一遊行。自零三年 起，七一遊行已成慣例。零三年的遊行事出有因，具有明確的內涵支持，是香港市民覺醒的一種呈現，但往後的七一遊行，就漸漸變成一種「反盛事」，是為遊行而 遊行，甚至變成了某一種儀式（Ritual)。把民主的手段當作一種儀式，那幾乎可以說是一種「狂熱」。諷刺的是，民主的真諦，我相信是反對狂熱的。一年 一度的遊行，充斥著各式別具心思的標語、口號。與其說是一種民主參與，不如說是一種以民主為題的主題活動，讓民眾透過這活動宣洩心中不快，每年狠狠地透過 雙腳在遊行中盡洩心中不快，然後又待明年補上另一次鎮定劑。
兩個例子之中，群眾依舊沉醉夢中。可惜的是，指出「盛 事」的虛假的人多如牛毛，即將要申辦的亞運的反對聲音大抵也是出於反對香港再搞「盛事」勞民傷財；指出「反盛事」的狂熱的人卻有幾多？我們都好像很相信社 會運動是代表公義的。但是從來沒有人反思所謂「代表公義」的「反盛事」本質上的問題。假如「反盛事」本質上和「盛事」無異，那麼「反盛事」又如何能夠帶領 我們走向一個「美好的將來」？
瑋
20101220
2010-12-17
聲
微雨，聲
把隔絕內和外的兩點釋放
在漸寒的某個冬夜
像某個電影的情節
雨點散落，打在傘上有聲
打在人工的表面上，發出人工的
聲音掩蓋了落在自然的韻律
把人工的弧面垂直旋轉九十度
讓雪花的變異隨心落在身上、地上、葉上
以及四周一切人工物上
除了那弧形的人造表面。
為了傾聽
傾聽。聽，細心的聽
那微小的，虛弱的
彷彿快要被遺忘的
雨，聲。
那是由無名錄成的，soundtrack no. 128。
瑋
20101216
(寫於，某冬夜雨，回家路上
天氣很冷，雨水也很冷。
但是我卻很想很想傾聽那將要被一切音樂以及其他噪音所掩蓋而教我快要忘記的雨聲。
即使氣溫下降，很冷，也要聽聽。
那是自然的 soundtrack no.128)
把隔絕內和外的兩點釋放
在漸寒的某個冬夜
像某個電影的情節
雨點散落，打在傘上有聲
打在人工的表面上，發出人工的
聲音掩蓋了落在自然的韻律
把人工的弧面垂直旋轉九十度
讓雪花的變異隨心落在身上、地上、葉上
以及四周一切人工物上
除了那弧形的人造表面。
為了傾聽
傾聽。聽，細心的聽
那微小的，虛弱的
彷彿快要被遺忘的
雨，聲。
那是由無名錄成的，soundtrack no. 128。
瑋
20101216
(寫於，某冬夜雨，回家路上
天氣很冷，雨水也很冷。
但是我卻很想很想傾聽那將要被一切音樂以及其他噪音所掩蓋而教我快要忘記的雨聲。
即使氣溫下降，很冷，也要聽聽。
那是自然的 soundtrack no.128)
2010-12-14
Forget Life.
Forget about life.
Forget about everything that lies behind.
Forget about things that does not exists.
Forget about stuffs that are not on list.
Forget about what you can remember.
Forget completely who you really are.
Forget those who you forget.
Remember those who you never met.
Let us all lie on the ground
loudly speak without a sound.
This is the time which we shall be lost
Gin, Tonic, Vodka and a double shot
of whisky,
of coffee.
Of all the craze
you can get from going through the liquor and caffeine maze.
Forget about everything that lies behind.
Forget about things that does not exists.
Forget about stuffs that are not on list.
Forget about what you can remember.
Forget completely who you really are.
Forget those who you forget.
Remember those who you never met.
Let us all lie on the ground
loudly speak without a sound.
This is the time which we shall be lost
Gin, Tonic, Vodka and a double shot
of whisky,
of coffee.
Of all the craze
you can get from going through the liquor and caffeine maze.
2010-12-08
2010-12-07
'Human Being'
In my previous note, I wrote about the trend from Being to Having, and then to Appearing.
Sounds pessimistic. Sounds like we are doomed to be in the era of Appearing, where things do not exist if they do not appear, i.e. things ,that are not seen by others, do not exist.
Well, it is not that bad. The word "human being" reveals it all.
Human (realization) , is always about Being. That is why we call ourselves 'Human Beings'.
At the point which human realization turns to Having, we are no longer 'human beings'. but a mutated species.
And from Having we moved on to Appearing, and the quality of 'human beings' is completely lost.
In other words, in this era, we are no longer 'human being', but 'human being'-like creatures which appears to be human beings.
Appearing, or appearance is something temporary. Yet, we human beings, or the 'human beings'-like creatures, have an "ad infinitum" complex. We all are in pursuit of eternal existence, eternity. We are obsessed with infinity, forever, to the point where there is no limit.
This "Ad infinitum" complex will then drive us back to Being, because Appearing cannot last long, and a life pursuing Appearing would be doomed to be a life of dissatisfaction.
The cycle would then be completed, when we return from Appearing to Being.
Sounds pessimistic. Sounds like we are doomed to be in the era of Appearing, where things do not exist if they do not appear, i.e. things ,that are not seen by others, do not exist.
Well, it is not that bad. The word "human being" reveals it all.
Human (realization) , is always about Being. That is why we call ourselves 'Human Beings'.
At the point which human realization turns to Having, we are no longer 'human beings'. but a mutated species.
And from Having we moved on to Appearing, and the quality of 'human beings' is completely lost.
In other words, in this era, we are no longer 'human being', but 'human being'-like creatures which appears to be human beings.
Appearing, or appearance is something temporary. Yet, we human beings, or the 'human beings'-like creatures, have an "ad infinitum" complex. We all are in pursuit of eternal existence, eternity. We are obsessed with infinity, forever, to the point where there is no limit.
This "Ad infinitum" complex will then drive us back to Being, because Appearing cannot last long, and a life pursuing Appearing would be doomed to be a life of dissatisfaction.
The cycle would then be completed, when we return from Appearing to Being.
2010-12-04
Being, having, Appearing.
Modernity is never about Being.
Since the rise of capitalism, it's about Having, because if the masses are all thinking about Being, then there won't be any profitable business.
It is Having that is profitable. Having, means people buying or consuming. The world has then become a world of ownership.
But, unlike Being, there is nothing to justify the act of Having.
So, to justify Having, we have come to the society of spectacle.
"To be seen" have then become the key word.
It also becomes what constitute the reality.
The reality is now what we can see, instead of what we are.
Appearing , does not only justify Having, it have make Having a precondition of Appearing.
You appear, because you have, even if you are not.
This logic has come to such a craze that, it becomes the mode of society,
"Spectacle,.. philosophizes reality" as Guy E. Debord puts it.
Since the rise of capitalism, it's about Having, because if the masses are all thinking about Being, then there won't be any profitable business.
It is Having that is profitable. Having, means people buying or consuming. The world has then become a world of ownership.
But, unlike Being, there is nothing to justify the act of Having.
So, to justify Having, we have come to the society of spectacle.
"To be seen" have then become the key word.
It also becomes what constitute the reality.
The reality is now what we can see, instead of what we are.
Appearing , does not only justify Having, it have make Having a precondition of Appearing.
You appear, because you have, even if you are not.
This logic has come to such a craze that, it becomes the mode of society,
"Spectacle,.. philosophizes reality" as Guy E. Debord puts it.
"We hope that you choke"
In the era, where emotions are commodified.
In the era, where uniqueness is understood in terms of mass reproduction.
In the era, where being is not as important as having, and having is not as great as appearing.
In the era, where economy grows for its own sake.
In the era, where LOVE is sold, where SADNESS is sold, where HAPPINESS is sold.
In the era, where to experience means to glance, to overheard, to briefly taste..
In the era, where LIFE is commodified.
In the era, where REVOLUTION is also commodified.
In the era, where revolutions are indeed counter-revolutions.
"We hope, that you choke, that you choke".
(Dedicated to the power, the revolutionaries and the mass. )
( " We hope that you choke, that you choke."
is a lyric line from Radiohead's "Exit Music(for a film)" )
In the era, where uniqueness is understood in terms of mass reproduction.
In the era, where being is not as important as having, and having is not as great as appearing.
In the era, where economy grows for its own sake.
In the era, where LOVE is sold, where SADNESS is sold, where HAPPINESS is sold.
In the era, where to experience means to glance, to overheard, to briefly taste..
In the era, where LIFE is commodified.
In the era, where REVOLUTION is also commodified.
In the era, where revolutions are indeed counter-revolutions.
"We hope, that you choke, that you choke".
(Dedicated to the power, the revolutionaries and the mass. )
( " We hope that you choke, that you choke."
is a lyric line from Radiohead's "Exit Music(for a film)" )
2010-12-03
Self-portrait ( Photomedia homework).
( Presentation 的文章)
Self-portrait
我從中學起，就蠻喜歡自拍。那個時候的自拍照，現在再看起來拍得很一般。我喜歡自拍的原因，小時候覺得自己蠻帥的，所以就喜歡自拍。那是一種有自信心的表現吧，雖然也許有人認為這是一種自戀的表現吧。
後來，買了一部數碼單鏡反光相機後，反而少了自拍。也許也是人長大了，不再單看外表後，就不那麼常自拍了。
自拍照，我覺得跟自畫像 (self-portrait)的功能很相似。兩者都是一種自我呈現的表演。自拍照跟自畫像當然有著技術上的不同，正如本雅明所講有關攝影的問題時所指。但是自拍照我認為也是一種自我的呈現，不管是否帶有表演性質。要拍出一張好的自拍照，其實一點也不容易。很多時候在網絡上見到的自拍照都屬於一種純粹紀錄自己樣貌的照片。在開始了接觸攝影以後，以及開始讀這視覺文化研究碩士以後，我就決定重新為自己拍一些自拍照，作為一種重新檢視自我的形式。
而拍這一張自拍照，並不是單單的拿起相機隨便的拍。這一張自拍照是在近二百張照片中所選出來的一張。跟一般人所認知的自拍不同。一般來說，網絡上作自拍照的人也只會是三數張的照片選其中一張。開始以更認真的心態去接觸攝影以後，我覺得自拍照跟其他攝影作品一樣，需要花同樣多的心機去拍攝。這個過程中，自拍者一定得接觸無數個自己的形象，從中選取一張自拍者認為最代表自己的照片。那個過程，正正是一種自我認知的過程。
說一說這張照片，我採用了單點光源，試圖做出三角光（亦稱為倫勃朗布光法）的效果。這一種布光法，常用於肖像的攝影。由來是十七世紀的荷蘭畫家倫勃朗的自畫像中常用的一種光源分布。這種光法常用於男性的肖像攝影，燈光在臉上形式三角形的影子，令面的兩側看上不相同。在這一張自拍照中，我的半邊面被相機所遮掩。由於是對著鏡子的關係，被遮蓋了的是右邊面，右眼的位置被相機取代，暗示著我透過攝影去看世界。而兩手持著相機的姿態，又暗示那並不是一件輕而易舉的事情。
而構圖方面，我把面置於正中，而眼睛也是放於水平中線附近，這樣把照片分為了四份，當中三份是有著光源的反射，突出於黑色的背景之上。而眼神直接的向鏡頭看，作為了一種視覺的引導。置中的構圖法顯示出我自己有一點點的自我中心的性格，而直視鏡頭的眼神則顯示出自信感，全黑的背景除了為突出受光的部份以外，也是凝造了一種神秘的感覺，同時又把視線吸引於受光的輪廓上而忽略背後的景物。
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| Final 的一張 |
同場加映，被放棄了的概念的其中一張：
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| 朋友說很像 The curious case of Benjamin Button 的海報 |
2010-12-02
2010-11-30
Screen
We are in the era of screen.
Screen as a plane to present visual stimulus, and also as a plane to prevent visual stimulus to enter our sight.
It's paradoxical. We see, and we cannot see through the screen.
It's a plane which opens our vision to blindness.
It's a little rectangular plane that were placed all around our habitat and forced us into blindness.
Reality is re-construct and re-perceived through screens.
We no longer see with our eyes, but we see with our screens.
It shows us the world, and it blinds us from seeing the world.
We, are in the era of the screen.
Screen as a plane to present visual stimulus, and also as a plane to prevent visual stimulus to enter our sight.
It's paradoxical. We see, and we cannot see through the screen.
It's a plane which opens our vision to blindness.
It's a little rectangular plane that were placed all around our habitat and forced us into blindness.
Reality is re-construct and re-perceived through screens.
We no longer see with our eyes, but we see with our screens.
It shows us the world, and it blinds us from seeing the world.
We, are in the era of the screen.
2010-11-29
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